Camille Kaiser


Today I left home and – part IV

Jan 13, 2020

Today I left home and went to the bookstore and the bookseller was telling the person at the cashier standing before me that a woman had been killed in his building that night – must have been a crime of passion according to him – and that it was really a shame because his wife and him loved living in that building, of course they did and I bought three books (all three written by women who know the difference between passionate crimes and feminicide).

Today I left home and – part III

Dec 29, 2019

Today I left home and tried to orient myself in this city I live in with a map of the city I lived in yesterday – abandoning maps I then took the subway and then took a bus to go inside a building and then took a subway again to go inside another building and then went back home by bus again and for a full day I did not feel the outside temperature of this city – but I was definitely overdressed in term of layers, so something (this city? outside temperature?) must have felt colder than it truly was.

Today I left home and – part II

Dec 9, 2019

Today I left home and once I was outside the building I started speculating on whether or not I had forgotten to turn off the oven. As I was speculating, I was still walking away from the building until I reached a point where I could finally decide I was too far to come back and check – it was now up to fate or rather, it was now a matter of letting go because I probably did turn it off. I remembered how my grandmother (my father’s mother) had a post-it glued to the inside of her front door on which it was written check the oven before leaving the house which she wrote herself after an incident that caused a pan-sized hole in the kitchen’s linoleum floor. I remembered how my grandmother (my mother’s mother) had to have her oven replaced a few months ago after hers exploded, which everyone was convinced was caused by her forgetting to turn it off, but was actually just caused by a short-circuit revealed after the oven-technician did the oven-autopsy and declared the cause of its death: short-circuit, which can happen to any oven. I remembered how my mother had left the stove on when I was 8 and alone at home and because she had put a wicker basket filled with apples on it, it caught fire a few minutes after she left the house and I was playing on the computer before running to the neighbor’s house saying my house is on fire, I need help when actually only the oven was on fire – and that was the only time in my life when I entered someone’s home without knocking.

Today I left home and – part I

Oct 17, 2019

Today I left home and went into the elevator and there was a child wearing a helmet inside and he didn’t answer when I said hello – also, someone had pressed on all the floor level buttons again. I looked at him thinking maybe it was him because he was a child and this was childish but he didn’t look back so we just went down every floor from floor 8 to ground level in silence (I had hesitated to get out of the elevator at floor 6 and finish the way down with the stairs but also didn’t want to seem annoyed by this slow descent, because that would have been very adult of me).